Bone Cancer In Dogs

my sister is driving me crazy. i’ve always been really skinny my whole life.

now i’m skinner because i have a medical condition that makes it extremely hard me to gain weight. i’m always in a battle to gain weight. she has a MAJOR issue w this. she knows i’ve been to the doc over 20 times from last year…. three specialist… and even got endoscopy and colonscopy to see if i have cancer (which i didnt)

yet. she sympathizes w me in private…. in public, she’ll mortify me by saying things like “i can see your chest bones, eat more… you better fatten up before my wedding”…. and she even got mad at me for emailing the bridesmaids because i said nordstrom didnt have my size so i need tailoring( i didnt even mention the size number , only that they didnt have my size)…. and took me off the braidsmaids’ email list…
she’s always comparing schools (she went to the best, i went to average), and our pets (always asking everyone which dog is cuter), and our spouses….
I tried sooooo much to have a breakthru in our relationship because she harbors soooo much resentment towards me.

when we were teenagers, she used to make me write a food journal everyday and force feed me. i had to always eat anything she offered in public, because she’s call me anorexic and bulimic in front of all my friends /her friends etc… she confessed 10yrs later that she did that because she had an eating disorder.

she has a habit of asking people who looks younger (because she looks younger even tho she’s older) EVERY time we meet new people. she once asked SEVEN WHOLE times in her friend’s house party.

I think she has nothing to be jealous about bc she’s soooo way more successful than me, i think she’s way more prettier, and she’s someone i always looked upto as a kid. i’m just stating the facts here. She has a hourglass figure (big boobs, tiny waist, big bust… i’m like a boy figure w like nonexistent boobs ), she’s really successful in her career, i’m still in school…..She’s been asked to model and be in music videos while just walking around , i’ve never been asked that my whole life… yet she’s the one who acts jealous and i’m the one who has to limit good events in my life to her so that she wont get jealous…Since we were younger, she had to get more clothes when we shopped, i had to get the same haircut if she didnt like her haircut, and she had to get everything newer /better or else she threw these tantrums…. so my parents obliged and i never really minded since this is been my entire life….
I’ve always been a sickly child (i looked like i was in first grade when i was in fifth grades) and my parents always had to take care of me. I was never allowed to go to slumber parties and long termed trips because they were afraid that i would get sick. (this did not apply for my sister since she was very healthy). and til this day, she’s always mentioning how our parents love me more… but it was because i was always sick and i had no control over it….

she’s gotten better at the tantrums she throws at me since she started therapy 5 yrs ago, but it comes back and it’s a vicious cycle.

i love her so much but this is too much. when she got engaged, she called everyone else, ignored my voicemails, even called my bestfriend (they’re not even close), and told the whole facebook community before she called me to tell me of her engagement. it’s really funny and sad to me because i would’ve called her FIRST if i got engaged….

as i’m approaching my 30s, i feel that her hatred towards me will never cease and it will be better if i just severed our relationship….

what do you think?

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